Sharing my pain

Dear Miss Honey,

Today I got a most wonderful suprise.. a task to do, and what kind of a task...?
I was worried, that the 46 strokes with the belt would have been too painful. And I was worried that I could not remain hard the whole time as you had ordered. And then I was a little bit worried about sharing with you in a direct way.
But oh... did I love to read your strict and demanding orders this morning. And then... so soothing at the end of your post. Your words are so powerful and meaningful to me. I grow with them, with every sentence you write, with every word you speak. And I grow with every task. I feel there is a bond between us, the bond of my submission to you as I experienced again at this task.

Would I be able to take the pain? There you were for me, on IM... we talked about the task, about my initial doubts on sharing on IM and cam.. I think I will be ready for this sooner, rather than later, and you wisely decided that we would postpone this a little, and that I had to do the task on my own - with you being there to talk me through each step.

One word from you, and I was ready for my belting.. for taking the pain. You could have snapped your fingers to give me an erection.. and then you ordered me to take the pain. I gave 10 strokes.. they were quite nice... then 20, still bearable, then the last 10 before my orgasm, they did hurt but not much.. You were there all the time, asking me how I felt.. making sure I was ready for the next round.

I had my orgasm, and it was great.. by being so focused on my submission to you, it was not that much pleasurable as such.. but the whole experience was. I had to take the last 6 strokes with the belt after my orgasm.. this is the real thing.. You don't have your sexual drive that high anymore, but you have to slap yourself in that post-orgasmic bliss.. It wasn't the pain, but purely mentally..

At the end I worry because I may have given you more, because I was not relaxed enought, I wanted it to happen too fast... But it had resulted in some nice marks and a butt that got that (beginning of a) feeling that is so special about spankings, whippings, beltings... feeling tingly and feeling nicely warm.. all into the butt.

I sweated a lot during this (for what I am used to, and I am not a sweater) and I breathed a lot thanks to your advice... I think I should practice this more often (is that some question to you??) to get used to it more. I loved the submission and sharing to you. Being focused on you partly, made me less focused on the pain and more willing to take what I wanted. Thank you so much...